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WesFest 1999 (Live, Download only)

by John Wesley

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1.
I was a child, life in your arms you hold me the fire in your eyes stopped the bleeding the love in your heart kept me breathing I feel I'm dying again. I've got nothing but hatred for my lover and friend the lion in your eyes watches me screaming the cold in your heart keeps my blood freezing Thirteen days, before you left me here staring thirteen days, before you tried to stop caring Stare into the dark the emptiness of hell comes to enfold me take a long look at your sweet creation did you get a thrill to watch my heart breaking Thirteen days, before you left me here standing alone thirteen days, before you left me to die on a phone I cannot pretend, can't find an end oh, how I miss you I was your lover and you were my friend I pray to God I never see you again Thirteen days, before you left me here waiting to hold you Thirteen days, before you forgot what I told you Thirteen days, that you gave to me only to take from me Thirteen days, before you left me here breaking
2.
Our Hero 04:02
Our hero lives in a box at the bottom of a Coca-Cola sign Like some great altar to God flashing messages all the time Here doesn't come here to worship, no, he comes here to live At night he crawls through the city to take whatever we don't give He used to have a little baby, but a fragile thing can soon be gone A little cold never hurt you and me, but her she didn't last long Our hero stares at the stars, watches them turn red and white Says these are men who made this, and this is not God's light Hear me, Hear me I'm at the bottom of the red and the white sign Hear me, Hear me Cause I'm coming for you Our hero can't read so he don't know what that sign says And you can be damned sure the taste of a coke never passed his lips He knows these are men who have made this and their day soon must come All the people at the bottom prayin' Lord thy will be done And they're shoutin' Hear me, Hear me I'm at the bottom of the red and the white sign Hear me, Hear me Cause I'm coming for you Like Don Quioxte chasing some dragon into the night Our hero dreams of the battle that he topples that red knight Topples that red light Our hero lays in the grass dreaming of his little sweet child He remembers holding her hands and touching her little sweet smile If a man can create this neon tower into the sky Where the hell was the God of the Coca-Cola sign the night she died Hear me, Hear me I'm at the bottom of the red and the white sign Hear me, Hear me Cause I'm coming for you
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Silver 04:31
Silver has a gun on the nightstand by her bed and she wonders if the day will come when she puts it to her head And she is alone again in the shadow of the morning sun and she wonders if he really had to go or did he just turn tail and run He promised that he would come but she don't wait by the phone because they never call and they never come and she just ends up alone And as the end of the night comes when that curtain starts to fall she says you can be the one for me when you take it take it all Just say heigh ho Silver when you ride when you ride when you take me take it all from me just stay with me tonight don't leave me alone tonight
4.
Sometimes we run we trip and fall Sometimes we look we don't see at all Sometimes we heal, it leaves a scar Sometimes we run we go too far And then we slide... You and me we been through this before Seems the bruises that won't heal got bruised some more Through these towering waves of malice we rise The only way we lived was side by side But then we slide... You know I've got no shame for what we are It's a miracle we ever come this far And the only way we ever did survive Was side by side Some days I was your only friend Some days I thought we would be again Some nights it was you kept me alive I can't face this world without you by my side But then we slide...
5.
We sit alone together and the space begins to breathe distance seems to come alive why this emptiness between you and me Where is your compassionate smile come here take hold of me I'll stroke your hair for a little while just rest your eyes, it'll be all right you see just rest your eyes, it'll be all right you see We sit alone, together your Crystal Blues have turned to ice your heart is colder then November what is it that I've failed to recognize I could make all of this better just don't close your eyes I could make all of this better just don't close your eyes I could make all of this better please don't close your eyes
6.
Say goodbye to the girl with the pale blue eyes is she too tired to see oh no, she's just tired of me I am in love with the girl of the pale blue eyes is she too blind to see what all this is doing to me She looks away when she sees me comin I lose my words when I try to speak she won't defend her reasons for runnin she's just tired of being part of this losin streak Says she's got herself a good new man say's this time she won't tell no lies I can't help but to want to tell him don't believe what it is you see in those eyes And should those blue eyes see another and should your lips feel his kiss then God just let me shut my eyes to you and help me find a way to get out of this keep me sane while I'm getting out of this then say goodbye to the girl with the pale blue eyes
7.
The fog sets in and covers the sky the brightness of the stars will disappear with no means to reason why I felt your presence as if you were here I cover you with all that I am I still can't see the sky I still can't see the sky Watch you fly away Little Blue Angel watch you race in the wind why do you fly from me Little Blue Angel this is not a dream, this is... The death of a friend this is the death of a friend yes you were my friend I will miss you my friend
8.
Look into the sky, you can't erase what's in your eyes Look into the sun, you cannot face what you've become Through the shopping malls, you blend into the human walls Your eyes search the faces, as you move within the places That you once moved with her, that you once knew with her When you were arm in arm showing happy to the world You were arm in arm showing happy to the world arm in arm showing happy to the world is no one happy in this world Grateful for breath, more than once you've cheated death Crushed till you scream, you can't awaken from this dream This I will pray for you, this I will promise you For every lover that's gone, another comes along And you will move in her, as if you always knew in her You will be Arm in arm showing happy to the world Arm in arm showing happy to the world Arm in arm showing happy to the world you will be happy in this world...
9.
I must guard this precious heart I must close these jaded eyes My small world has come apart Under the weight of our demise The words you say, the way you move The lies you tell, the bones you bruise Cannot be mended, cannot be healed I am the soul that no longer feels You must leave, you must go I am better here alone I have nothing left to steal I am the soul that no longer feels You must leave, you must go I am better here alone I am better here A velvet veil covered your head White like the satin on our bed These vows were never meant to be so mean This is not my velvet dream You must leave, you must go I am better here alone I have nothing left to steal I am the soul that no longer heals You must leave, you must go I am better here alone Be this hell or in between These are not my velvet dreams These are not my dreams
10.
High upon a hill Looking over the ruins burning still Where was I for all of this. Where was I for all of this. You never looked so bad she said I didn't know I could do all this she said I didn't know all this could burn with just a kiss Burn with just a kiss I didn't know You didn't notice Rome was burning You didn't notice you had the flame still in your hands Why didn't you notice Rome was burning As the passion filled your eyes You couldn't see to find the home you'd left behind Like all the lovers that live blind Lovers that live blind No you couldn't see You didn't notice Rome was burning You didn't notice you had the flame still in your hands Why didn't you notice Rome was burning
11.
We don't look at things the same way some days you don't look at me at all think we could weather this storm together won't be so hard if we fall So come to me with your hands open trust in me I will be your chance there's always time enough for bleeding there never seems to be time enough to dance no time to dance would you give me, my love a time to dance This old world is weighing down on you your eyes barely leave the floor rest your head upon my shoulder there's a meanness going on out there and you don't need anymore
12.
I've grown tired I've grown cold nothing causes any harm to me hated things I hold I can't feel what you give to me see the skin's burned from my hands I remember what you promised me like some desperation Angel I come running back to you... My eye have numbed my words have died can't witness what I've become God could burn my eyes I can't bear you to look at me is there nowhere I can hide I hold on to what you promised me Like some desperation Angel I come running back to you and in desperation Angel I've come running home to you trust in me my angel you'll never know what I've been through never know what I've been through no no, never know what I've been through I'm your desperation Angel I've come running home to you and in desperation Angel I've come running back to you running back to you running back to you running back to you running back to you
13.
Crazy 06:54
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In Your Eyes 07:17
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Beautiful 03:30
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Well here we are boy and I'm through dreaming all these colors I've been flying have lost the will to keep me high and I'm not amused... So I said hey you're no a star so are you through screaming cause all this paranoia's got you hiding in the dark and I can't see you... Well shine the light and you can come on in can't you see I'm on a mission you can stay if you are wishin but I'm waiting... see my daddy hit the doorway when I was just a kid said he'd gone to find the sunshine and bring it back for me and I'm waiting waiting for the sun to shine Do you see my scars it's dark and they're glowing all these tiny little punctures are a doorway to the sun a doorway to the sun think I'll have another one I know he's in here I can feel him lookin for me I hear him laughin like he did like he did when I was young daddy's bringin me the sun and I'm waiting waiting for the sun to shine
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To Reach Out 07:19
Nothing changes with the moon only the shades of emptiness within the room and dark to light, morning never comes too soon I see the sunlight in your hair I see you smile as you move without a care and the morning, becomes much brighter with you there But the cold wind comes and a cold wind blows you feel so scared because you're so alone and like a frightened child you call my name, you call my name But you only had to reach out to reach out and I'll be here reach out, reach out and take my hand. The past it haunts you like a ghost comes rushing back at you like waves upon the coast threatens what you are and who you love the most And when the cold wind comes and a true wind blows and you feel so scared because you're all alone like a frightened child, you call my name you call my name, you call my name And you only had to reach out
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I don't mind if you pry, it's just me It's the one thing I protect so well this is my story I don't care where you go or who you tell cause it's my life and my lines and have no fear we're not forgotten here One step to the light to see one foot on the edge that's me one long trail into the night all over this battle field Sometimes you crawl sometimes you kneel one long trail into the night one long trail into the night What you sell is not who you are it's what you do Who I am I protect so well keep away from you I don't care where you go or who you tell because into the night we go on and on this is my story oh this is my story One step to the light to see one foot on the edge, that's me one long trail into the night
20.
We hide...we run we dodge, we deny we turn from the gun and try To live...to learn yet we injure the loves that we don't recognize I look...to my home see a comb or a brush and remember the touch Of you...who I loved who I wronged who have come and gone you have come and gone though these dreams do fail to yield us the promise made Yield us the promise gave We reel...in the wake in the shock of the madness the all consuming sadness You bring...to me the body we created cut by words that were bladed we bleed... and move on with scars too slow to heal a memory too numb to feel you have come and gone Though we run from the coming of the light and we hide in the shadows of our own lives always searching for those who have gone those who have come and gone We feel safe in the cover of the night we bury the hope that's in our own lives living crushed by lovers who've gone you have come and gone you fade...from my sight from my heart you will bleed away then I will turn away of you...who I've loved who I've wronged who have come and gone
21.
Wish I could blame this on your youth but that would only make a martyr of the truth I chose to see only the beauty in your eyes never the shame never the lives Wish i could blame this on the sun I never seem to be the chosen one just a glimpse and you were gone this place without you seems all wrong Wish I could call you on the phone wish you happiness wherever you call home wish this night wasn't so dark and mean I wish you'd see me when you dream These are the days that won't let go this is the shame we're not allowed to show this is the anger from inside these are the days that will not die I wish these thoughts of you would end I wish that someday you could learn to be my friend I wish I'd never kissed your face I wish these thoughts to be erased I wish that someday you might find a little love a little peace of mind I wish that I don't fall apart I wish that you'd still hold me in your heart
22.
How easily forgotten how easily replaced your loved ones become... We are the wreckage strewn behind you love's own casualties from the battle that you won You could not wait to fly your flag you could not wait to raise you man in victory I know you hate to be mistaken for the woman of just an ordinary man... To be the lover of an ordinary man I'm down on my knees I'm crawling across the floor to you I'm holding out my hand God I do not understand why I'm down on my knees Now I'm troubled by your silence I'm troubled that you no longer dare to lay with me under the night stars or walk unhindered on your own two legs you could not wait to lose your new freedom you could not wait to carry your new chains I know you hate to keep him waiting so you'd better drag yourself back to him again I wanna feel alive I wanna feel awake to make these night stars go away I wanna feel alive I wanna feel awake I wanna feel anything and everything this world will let me taste I wanna see you cry I wanna see you break I wanna see you crash into the walls of your own infamy
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Brick by brick stone by stone dismantle the will of a man strip his flesh and bone Reach out your hand the moment comes blade catches the light of your eyes the man slowly comes undone Nobody noticed no one saw a thing all turned a blind eye to the fallen and the bad luck he brings You wake in the morning after the sky's a color that you can't see friends have fallen by the wayside why isn't anyone talking to me get those funny looks in the market people you loved just stare wander on with your hands in your pockets even your girlfriend don't care They've all come to watch the emperor They've all come to watch the emperor They've all come to watch the emperor To watch the emperor fall One part truth three parts deceit two parts shit that you made up add passion for heat Did ya hear he said this can you believe he done that can you believe the nerve of the man let me at him tell me where he's at wake to your fave in the mirror see someone you don't recognize stare at the changes in the reflection you've become someone that you despise
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Silver linings are for someone else's cloud yours have lately been all grey I know your dreams and they've seen their better days some of us who live have higher tolls to pay Why have you brought me this angel here Are you alive, ah come on look at me I know you're in there, just open your eyes I know you're alive oh but you just might not want to be I can hear you breathe just open your eyes hope is a stain on someone else's soul despair sustains your soul you waste your days, let them slip away hard to hold on when there's nothing left to hold Are you alive ah come on look at me I know you're in there just open your eyes I know you're alive oh ya just might not wanna be I can hear you breathe just open your eyes I want you to know I've never been far away there's nothing to be said can't be undone you're all I have so please don't go away there's nothing that you've said that can't be undone Are you alive ah come one look at me I know you're in there just open your eyes I know you're alive oh ya just might not wanna be I can hear you breathe just open your eyes
25.
So Bad 02:30
You took a turn for the worse when I caught up to you last night flickering it's saving light And though improper thing we may do not always just or always right every once in a while I see you smile like everything will be alright You always wanted to be so bad you always wanted to be one of the stars in the evening sky one of the doves flying free Winter stole upon you in your twenty second year fragile as a wedding smile you began to disappear and as the worst of this comes on you you know I'll never leave your sight as the night goes out of this room child just pray and hold me tight It's time to close your eyes child it's time for you to sleep there ain't no more pain and no more tears and this promise I will keep And though improper things we may do not always just or always right in your heart an angel smiles and guides you through the night
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What is this, you claim to profess some kind of rare deed done on time what mountain crossing have I missed what sort of barb's attached to your line Be careful of what you're promising don't dare look at me with those eyes Because you're way out of your league boy you're way out of your mind you can't be serious yet you can't be denied I've watched the sun rise and set on your deepest regrets yet you're still off chasing some star you leave me behind with your heart in my chest then come home bearing your latest scar When will you find what you're looking for don't you know it was here all the time
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So we stay at morning they come she was gone at the first sign of trouble see how she runs then you're paralyzed her silhouette in light and she's dancing on your grave The sunrise breaks what's done is done the wind blows cold through your bones and you see how they run when you're trice denied and you're paralyzed I'll be the last man by your side All of your castles may crumble and your ministers may lie I will still be standing I'll be the last man by your side

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Recorded live at WesFest 1999; 2 Disc - Acoustic and Electric set

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released January 1, 2001

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John Wesley Riverview, Florida

Singer, Songwriter, Guitarist. On tour with Vertical Horizon. Performed with Porcupine Tree, Steven Wilson, Fish, Sound of Contact, Big Elf, Mike Tramp. Newest album, a way you'll never be... Free music downloads at www.john-wesley.com check them out.... ... more

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